fathers...

so ever since i got a job my parents have been taking most of my money...my dad keeps making me buy parts for my car that doesnt run and we are trying to figure out whats wrong with it but it just seems like im putting money into for nothing...it has been just sitting there for the longest and it really sucks...today we are gonna go look at another bmw but this one is a stick...ive been wanting to drive a manual car so well see how it goes...but the thing is he want me to pay for it and i barely have any freakin money...man...haha my boyfriend says i complain to much

im in desperate need...

i need a car...but an affordable one that actually runs well

question....

how do you know when your in love?!

damit!!

so im failing my math class!!!
bummer...

i guess forever is not forever...

so i started my first day at forever 21 on sat...dude it was sooo hectic and busy...retail sucks butt...there were so many people and you turn your back for one sec and the table you just organized and made look all nice is right back to where it was....a huge mess...but still i was happy to work there caus eive always wanted to work there...so the hours were goood they gave me like 25 hours that week...so i figured the drive was worth it...mind you its in thousand oaks...but then by the end of my shift i went to go look at my scheduel again and it had changed drastically...i went from having like 5 days to just two...which really sucked...the old scheduel had me working on the following day but on the new scheduel they took that day away from me...so i didnt go into work...but then an hour after my shift was supposed to start they called me and asked if i was still gonna be able to make it and i told them that i didnt work that day according to the revised scheduel and all she said was "well your still supposed to come in"...and im thinking to myself i cant do this...not having a for sure scheduel was not gonna cuut it...especially since i was already working another job...so i sadly told her that i wasnt gonna be able to work for them...and all she said was "thats fine" and hung up on my face!!! how rude huh!!! but whatever it was the same pay as subway and subway is like ten min away form me so ya...hopefully i get more hours there too cause one of the managers is moving to Oregan...well see what happens

finally!!!

i get PAID tomorrow!!!

life sucks...

this sucks like working at subway is my frist job and i have been wanting to save up money for a car...heres the thing...my brothers car got repowed, my moms car got trashed, my car doesnt run....and now its like back and forth whos gonna use this car and when and how long and just bull like that...its sucks cause most of the time im the one left without a car...but ya so ive been trying to save up money but its not working out to good....i have to pay the water bill now and my parents and brothers and sisters just keep asking for money...its not easy to save it if i have to keep giving it away...ive been wanting to buy a cell phone too but thats not gonna work out either...why does everything have to be so expensive...it also doesnt help that my dad got layed off for a second time...hopefully everything comes through with the fafsa next semester cause i really need it!!

saturday...

this day was pretty interesting....so i was suppossed to go clubbin with my best friend nicole...the thing is the day before that we kinda got to talkin about my current boyfriend....she doesnt really like him and shes made that clear...she kinda gave me the impression that she thinks i deserve better and saturday was the night to find that better whatvere i deserve...to be honest there is no reason for her not to like him but idk...so that knida put me ina like bummed mood...she made me feel like she was gonna try and pick up for me or something...so saturday comes around and i told her that my boyfriend might go cause its not like im gonna be dancing with other guys you know...but i guess she got upset about it...and it was sad cause she kinda made me choose between her or my boyfriend...it sucked so bad to be put in that postion...it wsnt cool...but in the end i chose her...i felt bad for my boyfriend cause he had just gone home to get ready...but ya...so we went and she got all drunk, which was kinda lame, cause when shes drunk she cant stop talking bout herself....but in the end we had fun...we were all sweaty after...it just sucks thatt they cant get along...what do i do???

what i learned...

over this past week i learned a lot about sex and the many things that come along with it...for my essay number three i chose to do it on a planned parenthood representative....she taught me many things that i had no clue about before...obviously it is very important to practice safe sex...but what happens if you dont...there are many side affects that come along with unprotected sex...you can catch many STI's and some may not even be curable...so please when you decide to become sexually active please please please be safe about it...but there are also ways to get rid of a STI if you to come in contact with one...don't be afraid there's people out there to help you...free of charge...just always know that if you feel along your not...planned parenthood is there for you...all you have to do is call or visit...Katalina taught me that there are kind people out there...i just thought id say something about this topic because its very important and you really need to take care of your health...practice safe sex...use a condom...i also learned that there are many ways of preventing teen pregnancy...at planned paernthodd they offer free condoms and free birthcontrol methods...its all there for the taking....just be smart, and be safe

its cold!!

dude its freezing in this freakin lab!!!

Halloween

so i thought halloween was going to be bomb...but it sucked butt...i spent like fourty bucks on my costume and for what...just to drive around for like ever and go to parties that werent even fun...all around it basically sucked...and on top of that i didnt even get to spend it with my boyfriend...i mean that would have made it all the more better...but i did see him later that night or more like moring cause he worked until two!!...well there's always next year...three bad halloweens in a row...hopefully there's not a fourth

whatever...

who cares about subway!!! i finally got the job of my dreams!!! i got the call about a week ago and it was forever 21!!! yey!!! i was soo happy!! they gave me the job!!! i love their clothes so idk it just seems like the perfect job for me....the only thing is that it is in thousand oaks!!.....man thats a lot of gas money...but i figure ill save up some money from subway for the time being and i guess ill just go from there...i wonder how its gonna all work out....i guess im just gonna have to wait and see...

subway!!ahhh...

so i work at subway right now and it really sucks butt...they dont even give me good hours and on top of thatthey just hired a girl who has been working there for barely three weeks and i have been working there for three months and they gave her a raise and not me....im sad now :(

idk

so im not sure how many posts we should have by now...all i know is that i dont have that many...im still working out the kinks in this whole thing...i really dont like technical stuff so ya...im pretty slow when it comes to computers...i still dont even memorize my password or even log in name...haha...idk how i even got in here...im pretty sure next time ill forget again and somehow figure it out...wtf!!

oblivious...

Im barely realizing that parents are totally clueless when it comes to knowing about what is going on in their kids lifes...especially teenagers...just thought Id put that out there

Damit!!

so i just found out that i totally screwed up and worte the research paper instead of essay number three!! well at least im done with it but man that sucks cause i was pulling late nighters and not getting enough sleep in order to write that paper!!whatever....

i hate mornings!!

so i totally screwed up my scheduel!! i am not really a morning person at all...and my first class is at 8 and i get there aroud 8 15...on a good day...thats so horrible!! i am falling behind and i really need to pick up the pase!!next semester's scheduel is gonna be totally different!!

why...

Dude i am so off track!! I need to catch up on a lot of home work for my math class and this sucks butt...not to mention i havent gone for like two days and i have a bad grade in that class. I really need to step it up...like big time!!At least im not behind in any of my other classes...man now we have another essaay to write...surprisingly this class is so far my number one class...i don't typically like english but im doing pretty good in it...i mean compared to all my other classes.So my friend freakin took my extra credit paper and its due today and now i cant freakin turn it in...this is not good because the last midterm i took for that class i got a D on it so i really needed that extra credit!!College sucks..its not what i thought it would be...i figured college would be different from high school but so ar its turning out to be the same...i thought that college would be a place where you learn what you wanna learn instead of going back to all the basics....like i feel as though im doing high school all over again!!

Here it goes...

I'm not really a computer person but imma give this a try....ummm...lets see....so rainy days kinda bring me down, idk what it is bout it but i guess its the gloominess or something. This morning sucked. First of all my freakin car doesn't have a gas cap due to my idiot brother hahah he left it at a gas station! Not only that but my freakin seat was soakin wet because the rain seeped through but whatever i put a big black plastic bag over it hahaha so it's all good. oh yeah and on top of that my dumb butt procrastinated and now I have to write a 8 page essay all day today. Imma start on it as soon as we get out of this class, hopefully my seat dried up a lil.